Valentine’s Day Contemplations: Am I boring?

Hey, friiiends! It’s your girl Ssssssssssss.

Story time 😀 In November, my friend and I went to this really old club (my parents went there when they were younger). People of all ages go there which is interesting. A guy came over and tried smalltalk and boy, did he suck at it. I am the most awkward person ever when talking to guys which made it worse as did the fact that we were completely different persons. At some point he came to the infamous “What are your hobbies?”.

I haven’t told anybody about the blog, so I wasn’t going to mention it. I told him I liked video games and Netflix/movies and reading and he was like “I can’t imagine a girl like you being that boring.”. That it hit home. My entire night was screwed, I felt like sh*t. Because of my anxiety, I don’t normally go to clubs or parties. It bothers me that going out, even for dinner with my friends, is so hard for me to enjoy. I’d been proud of being at this club, talking to guys without feeling the urge to run away and hide and he took that away from me. He didn’t know me, he had no idea who I am. Why would you say something like that? In no situation ever is it okay to non-jokingly tell someone you think they are boring.

What does “a girl like you” mean? Are there expectations of a stranger I have to live up to? Am I boring? Do I have to defend what I like? No. Nobody is boring. If you are on of the people who prefer having a night in over a night out, that’s not boring. I am one of them. That’s me, that is who I am. I am not boring just because I don’t conform to someone’s expectations of a student in her early 20s. I am writing about this because it took me three months to get over this statement of a guy who didn’t know me and I never saw him again. And I think it is important to always remind yourself of your worth, no matter your gender or age or whatever. Which is what I want you to do.

Today is Valentine’s Day and I don’t have a valentine. I would be lying if I said I didn’t care. But I know it’s not because I’m boring. It’s because it’s difficult to meet someone when you struggle staying at a bar for longer than 10 minutes. Valentine’s Day is the day the “haha you’re single, have fun on your own, loser – oh wait – that’s not possible, you can only have fun with a partner. Sucks to be you. ok bye” spirit is shoved right into our faces. But guess what? Having fun is exactly what I’ll be doing. What you’ll be doing. What we well be doing. I don’t know about you but I will enjoy myself reading, playing video games, watching Netflix and nobody is going to stop me 😀 I sound bitter, maybe because I slightly am tbh. But I will have a great Valentine’s Day with the one person I will always be with: myself. And I hope you are having a great day as well, whether you are single or not; because you are awesome and you deserve it! And whether you’re single or not, it is always important to remind yourself of that and knowing your worth!

Have a lovely day! Until next time!

S. xx